the bitter you taste, the sweeter you enjoy
have a good conversation with sister just now
i love her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o haircut with mum_sister
- It's the bitterest 'food' I have ever tasted...
- i felt super annoyed when people keep asking'why me?'
- but I wanna to ask 'why she' and 'why me' right now
- she is innocent!!! ( actually, i am innocent too...)
- hey, please give her your warm arms
- or else I won't forgive you coz you take her away from me!!!

「從前的我沒有理想，唯一理想是明天退休。」19歲的陳俊穎，四五年前是隱蔽青年，中四輟學後終日待在房裏，試過整整3個月沒踏出自己房門。後來聽到從門罅傳來父親憂心的飲泣聲驚醒了他，給他勇氣步出房間，報讀再培訓局課程後「康復」了，「我現在學的、做的、夢想的，都是為了向上爬」。

不知怎地, 覺得很是感動, 互勉之。

今天我不幸地被迫與一名自戀怪展開談話...
(註: 幾經辛苦我才勉强定到此自戀怪真的是雄性的)

自戀怪：點解你唔紮起d頭髮呀?
我：我懶囉 (需要補足的是 此音量乃正常人可聽見)
自戀怪：點解你唔紮起d頭髮啫?
我：...
自戀怪：點解呀?
我：我唔想囉
自戀怪：你睇下你，我d頭髮都可以紮到呀
我：哦...係喎
(心諗：好叻咩,紮到呀係紮到呀, 但 條像筋會因為頭髮太短而紮唔到囉)
(又心諗：身為一個學生在學校 你d頭髮咁長 你d「滴水」咁長 又唔剪下? )
自戀怪：你個髮型都2年啦喎, 好怪
我：哦...係咩?
(心諗：喂! 你想我點答你呀,答你: "係呀,2年啦, 好怪" 咁呀? )
(又心諗：我想講唔係2年囉, 之前轉過啦, 大把人睇過再問啦
(你自己個時睇唔到針ma, e家又黎煩我)
自戀怪：髮型師剪嫁? 定你自己剪嫁?
我：髮型師剪嫁
自戀怪：咁係你俾錢髮型師剪 定 髮型師俾錢你俾佢剪呀?
我：我mami俾錢嫁 (心諗：邊有人會問埋d咁乞人憎既問題嫁)
自戀怪：哦... (隔了一陣) 但咁怪既
我：哦...係咩? (心諗：你想點呀你 夠啦~)
----------------------忘記其間的對話了-----------------------
我：哦...我識睇掌相同手相
自戀怪：(鄙視語氣)你識睇? 咁冷門既...
我：哦...係咩?
自戀怪：真係好冷門喎
我：哦...係咩? 唔覺bor (心諗：一d都唔冷門囉 你唔知啫 )
自戀怪：點解鐘意埋d咁冷門既野?
我：係咩? 唔係好冷門啫 我鐘意咪得囉~ 我最鐘意d冷門既野...
自戀怪：我唔信e d野
我：哦...
自戀怪：你信嫁?
我：ok啦~我認為e d野係某程度上真係反映到, 但始終你都要努力囉
自戀怪：你真係識睇?
我：ok啦~ 唔係特登去學但識囉
自戀怪：咁幫我睇呀
我：吓… (萬般不情願) 但我要一張臉無表情既相喎
自戀怪：好啊, 我俾我個身分證你睇呀
我：哦...
(心諗：你之前又話冷門又話唔信e d又話唔信我識睇…)
-------------我睇睇睇睇睇, 再睇睇睇睇睇--------
我：你表裡ok不一, 即係大多一樣, 但有時表裡不一
自戀怪：係呀！你講得好啱
我：你表面懶散, 但其實唔係
自戀怪：係呀！我真係咁！
---此自戀怪臉上有一深黑色癦, 我想不到身分證上都見到他這深黑色癦-------
補：(身分證很少會見到癦, 而且還見得很清楚…)
總結這癦 得來不易 顯而易見 實屬難得)---(欠揍的我)
----仍因為鄙人見識少, 從沒知道 現今科技 如此發達, 連一粒深黑色癦都可以在身分證上見到, 不禁輕「咦！」左一聲----
---------------------唉 想不到這才是我惡夢的開始 快樂的終端----------------------
------------------------好 好 好 我說回重點...------------------------
我：咦！(原因如上)
自戀怪：係呀！真係我黎嫁！好靚仔吧...
我：嗯……………………(以超音鼠速度低頭)
(大伙兒該知道我為甚麼把他改名為自戀怪吧)
(鳴…鳴…鳴…為甚麼他可以從我一個「咦」字 突然恍然大悟地明解我其實想稱讚他的??? 我是不是說錯了個「咦」字呀? 是我錯、是我錯)
自戀怪：我真係好靚仔嫁！
我：嗯…………………………………嗯………………………………(繼續低頭、低頭、低頭)
自戀怪：其實我都好平易近人呀可?
我：嗯………ok啦
自戀怪：我想講冇人好似我咁平易近人囉
我：嗯………嗯………
自戀怪：我想講我覺得自己真係好平易近人囉
我：嗯………嗯………嗯………
(心諗：雖然 想起他上面種種、種種、種種如斯乞人憎的行為, 我也會, 後悔不已
但為甚麼我不開口罵爆他?
但為甚麼仍是說「嗯………」
算罷… ！(原因如下)
1.不夠勇氣
2.不想浪費時間
3 他也是信我才給身分證我看罷了[也是one crucial important point] (雖然我認為他對身分證是沒有危機意識, 啊猪啊狗也是一付「睇啦睇啦無所謂」那種, 但也是算罷… )
4 他沒心的 他真的只是太自戀, 不知道的 [MIAN point]
算罷… ！

不知道自己能幫到什麽
好難受
眼淚是一行一行慢慢地順著臉掉下的
就好像這痛苦會一步一步吞噬我們的所有
快寫不下去了...

其實我自己也不了解自己
為甚麼不告訴她
為甚麼不敢按enter
怕她為我擔心?
怕她把事情傳出去?
我不知道
只是很怕很怕她知道

daddy, 原來我只是講祢知 多謝祢
祢...
嗯...
我知祢會幫我settle down晒d野
但可唔可以快d 唔該丫
唉 對唔住 我知我唔應該咁講
祢會有祢的旨意
nowhere i can go
我靠晒祢嫁啦
我愛祢

Turtles

o fall in love with Edison's Tanning In Your Sunray
o fall in love with Owl City's songs

o their songs bring me to sky
o their songs carry me to fly
o their songs feed me to full
o their songs make me cry

o here i mean Owl City's Vanilla Twilight
o how long have I never cried for A SONG?
o m... probably is Once Upon A Time, I have cried for a song
o first i thought this song is a soft and sweet song
o and it is talking about how Owl City love his girlfriend
o knowing the true story before this song, I -C-R-Y- (?!)
o his girlfriend died for something ar!!! how on earth could this be...
o seems that now Vanilla Twilight is part of my life
o coz I have heard this for MILLION times already
o I love Owl City!!!!


o had chinese writing and reading exam today
o will have biology, chinese oral and lstening exam tomorrow
o i havn't really revise for biology till 7:05!!!
o and the point is I finished exam arond eleven and came back home at 1 (the clock hand really exactly points at 1 lor, why can't be 12:55 huh?)
o and i havn't bath... ><
o gotta do all these stuffs at 超音鼠速度!!! .\"/.

11:00
o read Chris's MSN message
o he said today is his tong sister's wedding...
o ar... finally I didn't meet him
o dun know what else I can say...
o add oil, tungtung!!! !!!

o and yea, I borrowed Lu Ding Jing 1-5 from the school library, YEAH